As I sit in this broken house
With not a thing to do
I try to remember
All the good things
That I used to like about you
Starring out the window
As time passes me by
You've let me down repeatedly
And I ask myself why
You know where I came from
And the things I've been through
But I never expected to experience
Those awful things with you
I was a fool back then
And I should have seen the signs
But I trusted my heart once again
And ignored the doubtful mind
Now its many years later
And we're onto the second
I'm no longer a priority
Now I'm left on the back end
As tears roll down my eyes each day
Whether you're near or there
Or here or not
You're always far away
You're not here physically
Nor mentally or emotionally
Its like the ships set sail
And you've left me out at sea
Although I've been here once
I never thought twice
That maybe this is exactly what I needed
A forced path in my life
My skin has to rethicken
Though I learned the hard way
That maybe its time to retire my heart
Shove in a box far away
Maybe let it sank to the bottom of the ocean
Then I can feel the sweet release
I must start following my gut and mind
If I want to be free
So as the anchor falls
I untied that dreaded knot
Closed my eyes and a tear fell down
But a piece of me got caught
I didn't want to let it go
But my body started to sink
My hand gripped firmly around the rope
I have to let go of this thing
My air grew short
And the surface grew far
I had to make the decision
So I ripped out my heart
And tied it to the rope
A clutched my open incision
I watched it fall into the darkness
As I quickly resurfaced for air
That heart was filled was too much heaviness
Too much hurt ,broken and despaired
Then I felt the glow of light
Beautiful warmth upon my face
Closed my eyes
Regained my strength
And swam into another day
It won't be easy and it won't come fast
But I feel so much better already
I know what I need and I know what I want
And I know exactly where I'm headed
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